APRIL AT THE PARIS AIRPORT “Well it was nice to be blessed and to get an overview of what the whole program was for and what we might be feeling and what we should be thinking about while we’re over there…It made me feel safe and at ease to take the trip…The plane ride was really exciting, I got to talk to & get to know a lot of people.  Once I talked to everybody and got to know everybody I realized that I wasn’t such an outcast and that there were people that are thinking along the same lines as I am... feeling like an outcast in a sense that I’m not exactly fully practicing in my religious beliefs.  I fully believe and I have strong faith but I’m not always following through with what I should…I was afraid of how they were going to turn and look at me. I know Catholics are not supposed to be judgmental. But I was worried about feeling like I shouldn’t be here. Now that I’ve gotten to talk to a lot of people I see that a lot of people are on the same level I am. I think I’m looking to get a lot of things out of this trip.  I know what I’ve been told all my life I know how I was raised, now I’m here to see it for myself and kind of validate my beliefs I worry a lot because there is a lot of evil around. I’m fearful of bad things happening to my family me…Once I see how wonderful it is to have deep faith I’ll feel a lot more comfortable in my everyday life.  I definitely think that If I had a little bit more faith then I’d be able to really trust and not worry so much.  I feel like I have to be one way or another, I either have to be wholesome and completely pure or I can do my own thing and do what I want, whether it’s what God wants me to do or not.  It’s just a matter of self-discipline and trusting in God and everything else. I’m still exploring what wholesomeness consists of. I think people should do everything in moderation.  I see a lot of people ignoring their problems and ignoring the fact that something is controlling them. I think that leads to self destruction and ultimately major unhappiness. It’s not a fun place to be. Those people need to find their faith and I’m right there with them.