I know what's right and wrong.  My beliefs were kind of mixed up… you know… I know what’s right and wrong. I know it very clearly. And then I also, wanted to tell you that another thing that may be holding me back is that I’m into astrology.  Yeah, I think it’s really cool, ya know. But my grandmother’s always telling me and my mom’s always telling me, ‘You shouldn’t believe that, this and that.’ But I don’t rely on it, you know what I mean? I just think it’s really neat that different people have different personalities because of where the planets were when they were born.  That’s how I take it … you know what I mean … and I think it’s really neat. I don’t know if that’s holding me back or if it’s a negative thing or an evil thing or what. I’m still exploring it. I think Ill learn a lot going and seeing these places , my grandmother made me promise her.  I don’t know if its fear or anticipation I need to know what is going to happen tomorrow. Be well aware of everything  I did not know if would I stick like a sore thumb , packing the right clothes I like sticking out but not in a negative way. Don’t want people to think that I'm too eccentric. Everybody here is really nice and non judgmental. I think ill be good . I think ill make a lot of friends.  I can understand more than I can communicate back what I feel to be right in conscience God talking to me I have not explored my faith to much and that’s what I plan on doing. Taking some time out of my everyday life trying to make it part of my everyday life. I think I would be happier… I feel a connection to God protected by God that he is looking out for me when everything is falling apart I pray and it's consoling I pray for the comfort I get back from it  Then I have some other beliefs that I don't know if they contradict I would hate for that to happen because I was raised Catholic I studied this and that in the bible …that’s more solid to me than anything (that it has existed for so long). I have never been able to read the whole bible.