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The Spiritual Testament of John Paul II was read to the Cardinals at
their meeting on 6 April and published in full the following day in the
original Polish. The Pope wrote his first version during the Lenten
Spiritual Exercises in 1979 and updated it six times: with one undated
addition, and in 1980, 1982 (twice on the same day), 1985 and 2000, the
Year of Great Jubilee. The following is a translation of the late Holy
Father's original text.
Totus Tuus ego sum
In the Name of the Most Holy Trinity. Amen.
"Watch, therefore, for you do not know on what day your Lord is
coming" (Mt 24:42)
these words remind me of the last call that will come at whatever time
the Lord desires. I want to follow Him and I want all that is part of my
earthly life to prepare me for this moment. I do not know when it will
come but I place this moment, like all other things, in the hands of the
Mother of my Master: Totus Tuus. In these same motherly hands I
leave everything and Everyone with whom my life and my vocation have
brought me into contact. In these Hands I above all leave the Church,
and also my Nation and all humankind. I thank everyone. I ask
forgiveness of everyone. I also ask for prayers, so that God's Mercy may
prove greater than my own weakness and unworthiness.
During the spiritual exercises I reread the Testament of the Holy
Father Paul VI. It was reading it that, gave me the incentive to write
this Testament.
I leave no possessions of which it will be necessary to dispose. As
for the things I use every day, I ask that they be distributed as seems
appropriate. Let my personal notes be burned. I ask that Fr Stanislaw
see to this, and I thank him for his help and collaboration, so
understanding for so many years. On the other hand, I leave all my other
"thank yous"
in my heart before God Himself, because it is difficult to express them.
With regard to my funeral, I repeat the instructions that were given
by the Holy Father Paul VI (here a note in the margin says:
burial in the ground and not in a sarcophagus, 13 March 1992). Let the
College of Cardinals and my Fellow Citizens decide on the place.
"apud Dominum misericordia et copiosa apud Eum redemptio"
John Paul PP. II
Rome, 6 March 1979
After my death I ask for Holy Masses and prayers
5 February 1990
Undated page
I express the most profound trust that, in spite of all my weakness,
the Lord will grant me every grace necessary to face, in accordance with
His will, any task, test or suffering that He sees fit to ask of His
servant during his life. I am also confident that He will never let me
fail through some attitude I may have: words, deeds or omissions, in my
obligations to this holy Petrine See.
24 February to 1 March 1980
Also during these spiritual exercises I reflected on the truth of the
Priesthood of Christ in the perspective of that Passing which the moment
of death is for each one of us. The Resurrection of Christ is an
eloquent [above this word was added decisive] sign of the
departure from this world for rebirth in the other, future world.
I therefore read the draft of my Testament as it was recorded last
year, also written during the spiritual exercises
I
compared it with the Testament of my great Predecessor and Father, Paul
VI, with his sublime testimony on the death of a Christian and a Pope
and I reminded myself of the matters mentioned in the draft of 6 March
1979, prepared by me (in a somewhat makeshift manner).
Today, I would like to add just this: that everyone keep the prospect
of death in mind and be ready to go before the Lord and Judge
and at the same time Redeemer and Father. So I keep this continuously in
my mind, "entrusting that decisive moment to the Mother of Christ and of
the Church
to the Mother of my hope.
The times we are living in are unspeakably difficult and disturbing.
The Church's journey has also become difficult and stressful, a
characteristic proof of these times
both for the Faithful and for Pastors. In some Countries (as, for
example, those I read about during the spiritual exercises), the Church
finds herself in a period of persecution no less evil than the
persecutions of the early centuries, indeed worse, because of the degree
of ruthlessness and hatred. Sanguis martyrum
semen christianorum ["The blood of martyrs is the seed of
Christians" (Tertullian)]. And in addition to this, so many innocent
people disappear, even in this Country in which we live....
I would like once again to entrust myself entirely to the Lord's
grace. He Himself will decide when and how I am to end my earthly life
and my pastoral ministry. In life and in death [I am] Totus Tuus
through Mary Immaculate. I hope, in already accepting my death now, that
Christ will give me the grace I need for the final passover, that is,
[my] Pasch. I also hope that He will make it benefit the important cause
I seek to serve: the salvation of men and women, the preservation of the
human family and, within in it, all the nations and peoples
(among them, I also specifically address my earthly Homeland), useful
for the people that He has specially entrusted to me, for the matter of
the Church and for the glory of God Himself.
I do not want to add anything to what I wrote a year ago
except to express this readiness and, at the same time, this trust which
these spiritual exercises have once again inspired in me.
John Paul II
5 March 1982
Totus Tuus ego sum
In the course of the spiritual exercises this year I read (several
times) the text of my Testament of 6 March 1979. Although I still
consider it as temporary (not definitive) I am leaving it in its present
form. I am not (for the moment) changing anything, nor do I add anything
to the arrangements it contains.
The attack on my life on 13 May 1981 in some way confirmed the
exactness of the words I wrote during the spiritual exercises in 1980
(24 February-1 March).
I feel so much more deeply that I am totally in God's Hands
and I remain continuously available to my Lord, entrusting myself to Him
through His Immaculate Mother (Totus Tuus).
John Paul PP. II
Postscript
In connection with the last sentence of my Testament of 6 March 1979
("Let the College of Cardinals and my Fellow Citizens decide on the
place/that is, the place of the funeral")
I
explain that I have in mind: the Metropolitan of Krakow or the General
Council of the Polish Bishops' Conference
in the meantime, I ask the College of Cardinals to do their best to
satisfy the possible requests of those listed above.
1 March 1985
Once again
with regard to the expression "the College of Cardinals and my Fellow
Citizens": the "College of Cardinals" is under no obligation to consult
"my Fellow Citizens" on this topic; it may, however, do so, if for some
reason it should deem it appropriate.
JPII
The spiritual exercises in the Jubilee Year 2000
(12-18 March)
[for the Testament]
1. When, on 16 October 1978, the Conclave of Cardinals chose John
Paul II, Cardinal Stefan Wyszyński,
the Primate of Poland, said to me: "The task of the new Pope will be
to lead the Church into the Third Millennium". I do not know if I am
repeating the sentence exactly as he said it, but this was at least the
sense of what I heard him say at the time. These words were spoken by
the Man who went down in history as the Primate of the Millennium: a
great Primate. I witnessed his mission, his total confidence, his
struggles and his triumph. "When victory is won, it will be a victory
through Mary": The Primate of the Millennium was fond of repeating these
words of his Predecessor, Cardinal August Hlond.
Thus, I was in some way prepared for the task presented to me on that
day, 16 October 1978. As I write these words, the Great Jubilee of
the Year 2000 is already a reality that is taking place. On the
night of 24 December 1999 the symbolic Great Jubilee Door in the
Basilica of St Peter was opened, and subsequently that of St John
Lateran, then that of St Mary Major
on New Year's Day, and on 19 January the Door of the Basilica of St Paul
"Outside-the-Walls". Particularly the latter event, because of its
ecumenical character, was imprinted indelibly on memories.
2. As the Great Jubilee of the Year 2000 continues, the 20th century
closes behind us and the 21st century unfolds, from one day to the next.
In accordance with the designs of Providence, I have been granted to
live in the difficult century that is retreating into the past, and now
in the year in which I have reached my 80s ("octogesima adveniens"),
I must ask myself whether the time has come to say with Simeon of the
Bible, "Nunc dimittis".
On 13 May 1981, the day of the attack on the Pope during the General
Audience in St Peter's Square, Divine Providence miraculously saved me
from death. He Himself, who is the One Lord of life and death, extended
this life of mine, and in a certain way he restored it to me. Ever since
that moment it has belonged even more to Him. I hope He will help me to
recognize how long I must continue this service to which he called me on
16 October 1978. I ask him to deign to call me to Himself whenever he
wishes. "If we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the
Lord; so then... we are the Lord's" (cf. Rom 14:8). I hope that as long
as I am granted to carry out the Petrine service in the Church, God in
His Mercy will grant me the necessary strength for this service.
3. As I do every year during the spiritual exercises, I read the
Testament that I wrote on 6 March 1979. I continue to keep the
instructions it contains. What was added then, and also during the
subsequent spiritual retreats, reflects the difficult and tense general
situation that marked the 1980s. After autumn of the year 1989, this
situation changed. The final decade of the last century was free of the
previous tensions; this does not mean that it did not bring new problems
and difficulties. In a special way may Divine Providence be praised
for this, that the period known as the "Cold War" ended without
violent nuclear conflict; the risk of it had been threatening the
world in the previous period.
4. As I stand on the threshold of the Third Millennium "in medio
Ecclesiae", I would like once again to express my gratitude to
the Holy Spirit for the great gift of the Second Vatican Council,
to which, together with the whole Church
and especially with the whole Episcopate
I
feel indebted. I am convinced that it will long be granted to the new
generations to draw from the treasures that this 20th-century Council
has lavished upon us. As a Bishop who took part in the Council from the
first to the last day, I desire to entrust this great patrimony to all
who are and will be called in the future to put it into practice. For my
part, I thank the eternal Pastor who has enabled me to serve this very
great cause in the course of all the years of my Pontificate.
"In medio Ecclesiae"... from the very first years of my
service as a Bishop
precisely, thanks to the Council
I
was granted to experience the fraternal communion of the Episcopate. As
a priest of the Archdiocese of Krakow, I was granted to experience the
fraternal communion of the presbyterate
the Council had opened a new dimension of this experience.
5. How many people I would have to list! The Lord God has
probably called the majority of them to Himself
as for those who are still here, may the words of this Testament recall
them, everyone and everywhere, wherever they may happen to be.
In the course of the more than 20 years since I have been carrying
out the Petrine service "in medio Ecclesiae", I have
experienced the benevolent and most especially the fruitful
collaboration of so many Cardinals, Archbishops and Bishops, so many
priests and so many consecrated persons
Brothers and Sisters
finally, of a great many lay people, in the Curial environment and in
the Vicariate of the Diocese of Rome as well as outside these contexts.
How could I not embrace with grateful memories all the Episcopal
Conferences in the world, which I met in the course of their visits
ad limina Apostolorum! Besides, how could I fail to remember all the
Christian Brothers and Sisters
non-Catholics! And the Rabbi of Rome and likewise all the
representatives of non-Christian religions, not to mention all the
representatives of the worlds of culture, science, politics and the
media!
6. As the end of my earthly life draws close, I think back to its
beginning, to my Parents, my Brother and my Sister (whom I never knew,
for she died before I was born), to the Parish of Wadowice where I was
baptized, to that city of my youth, to my peers, my companions of both
sexes at elementary school, at high school, at university, until the
time of the Occupation when I worked as a labourer, and later, to the
Parish in Niegowic, to St Florian's Parish in Krakow, to the pastoral
work of academics, to the context... to all the contexts... to Krakow
and to Rome... to the persons who were especially entrusted to me by the
Lord.
I want to say just one thing to them all: "May God reward you!".
"In manus Tuas, Domine, commendo spiritum meum".
17 March 2000, A.D.
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