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Part 1 Father Kolodiejchuk on Unity With Jesus
ROME, 4 SEPT. 2007 (ZENIT)
Feeling or not feeling love, Mother Teresa of Calcutta knew that she
was united with Jesus, for her mind was fixed on him and him alone.
The founder of the Missionaries of Charity expressed this in a letter
written to a spiritual director, now published with many other letters
in a volume titled "Come Be My Light," edited and presented by Father
Brian Kolodiejchuk.
In this interview with ZENIT, Father Kolodiejchuk, a Missionary of
Charity priest and the postulator for the cause of canonization of
Blessed Mother Teresa of Calcutta, discusses his new book and the
interior life Mother Teresa kept hidden from the world.
Q: The extraordinary interior life of Mother Teresa was discovered after
her death. Aside from her spiritual directors, how was this life,
especially her suffering of spiritual darkness, kept from all who knew
her?
Father Kolodiejchuk: No one had any idea of her interior life because
her spiritual directors held onto these letters. The Jesuits have some,
some were at the archbishop's house, and Father Joseph Neuner, another
spiritual director, had some.
These letters were discovered when we went looking for the documents for
the cause.
When she was alive, Mother Teresa asked that her biographical
information not be shared.
She asked Archbishop Ferdinand Perier of Calcutta not to tell another
bishop about how things had begun. She said, "Please don't give him
anything from the beginning, because once people come to know the
beginning, like the locutions, then the focus would be on me and not on
Jesus."
She kept saying, "God's work. This is God's work."
Even the closest sisters had no idea of her interior life. Many would
have thought that she would have had a great intimacy with God to keep
her going in light of the difficulties of the order and the material
poverty she suffered.
Q: The book discusses Mother's secret vow that she made early in her
vocation, where she promised not to refuse God anything on pain of
mortal sin. What role did this play in her life?
Father Kolodiejchuk: Mother Teresa made this vow, in 1942, to never
refuse God anything.
Her inspiration letters from Jesus soon followed. In one of them, if not
both of them, Jesus says, picking up on her vow, "Wilt thou refuse to do
this for me?"
So the vow is the background to her vocation. Then you see in the
inspiration letters where Jesus makes her call clear.
She then pushes forward because she knows what Jesus wants. She is
motivated by thought of his longing and his pain because the poor don't
know him, so they don't want him.
This was one of the pillars that kept her going through the trials of
the darkness. Because of her certainty of her call and this vow in one
of the letters she says, "I was at the point of breaking and then I
remembered the vow, and that picked me up."
Q: There has been a lot of discussion about Mother Teresa's "dark
night." It is described in your book as a "martyrdom of desire." This
element, her thirsting for God, has largely been missed. Can you
describe this?
Father Kolodiejchuk: A good book to read to understand some of these
things is Father Thomas Dubay's "Fire Within."
In Father Dubay's book, he speaks of the real pain of loss and a pain of
longing, with the pain of longing being more painful.
As Father Dubay explains, in the path to authentic union with God, there
is the purgative stage called the dark night, after this a soul then
goes to a stage of ecstasy and true union with God.
The purgative stage for Mother Teresa seems to have been during her time
of formation at Loretto.
At the time of her profession, she said her companion was most often the
darkness. The kind of letters that you read there, in the dark night,
are typical letters you would read of someone in the dark night.
Father Celeste Van Exem, her spiritual director at the time, said that
maybe in 1946 or 1945 she was already close to ecstasy.
After that, there is a reference to when the inspirations and locutions
came, when the difficulty against faith stopped.
Later she wrote to Father Neuner, explaining: "And then you know how it
worked out. And there, as if our Lord just gave himself to me to the
full. The sweetness and consolation and union of those 6 months passed
but too soon."
So, Mother Teresa had six months of intense union, after the locutions
and ecstasy. She was already in the real transforming union. At this
point, the darkness returned.
But now, however, the darkness she experienced was within that union
with God
so it wasn't that she had the union and then lost it. She lost the
consolation of the union and alternated between the pain of loss and a
deep longing, a real thirst.
As Father Dubay said, "At times the contemplation is delightful, and at
other times it is a strong thirsting for him." But in Mother Teresa's
case, apart from one month in 1958, she did not have this consolation of
union.
There is one letter in which she said: "No Father, I am not alone, I
have His darkness, I have His pain, I have a terrible longing for God.
To love and not to be loved, I know I have Jesus in the unbroken union,
for my mind is fixed on him and him alone."
Her experience of darkness within union is very rare even among the
saints because for most, the end is union without it.
Her suffering, then, to use the Dominican theologian Father Reginald
Garrigou-Lagrange's term, is reparatory, much more for the sins of
others, not purificatory, for her own sins. She is united to Jesus in
enough faith and love to share in his experience in the Garden of
Gethsemane and on the cross.
Mother Teresa made the comment that the suffering in the Garden was
worse than the suffering on the cross. And now we understand where that
was coming from, because she understood Jesus' longing for souls.
The important thing is that it is union, and as Carol Zaleski pointed
out in her article in First Things, this kind of trial is a new kind of
trial. It is a modern kind of experience for the saints over the last
100 years or so, to suffer the feeling that one does not have any faith,
and that religion is not true.
Part 2
Father Kolodiejchuk on Joy in Suffering
ROME, 5 SEPT. 2007 (ZENIT)Without suffering, our work would just be
social work, not the work of Jesus Christ, not part of the redemption,
said Mother Teresa of Calcutta.
The founder of the Missionaries of Charity expressed this in a letter
written to a spiritual director, now published with many others letters
in a volume titled "Come Be My Light," edited and presented by Father
Brian Kolodiejchuk.
In this interview with ZENIT, Father Kolodiejchuk, a Missionary of
Charity priest and the postulator for the cause of canonization of
Blessed Mother Teresa of Calcutta, discusses his new book and the
interior life Mother Teresa kept hidden from the world.
Part
1 of this interview was published Tuesday.
Q: The name of the book, "Come Be My Light," was a request Jesus made to
Mother Teresa. How did her redemptive suffering for others in such
extreme darkness connect with her particular charism?
Father Kolodiejchuk: During the 1950s, Mother surrendered and accepted
the darkness. Father Neuner [one of her spiritual directors] helped her
to understand it by linking the darkness with her charism, of satiating
Jesus' thirst.
She used to say that the greatest poverty was to feel unloved, unwanted,
uncared for, and that's exactly what she was experiencing in her
relationship with Jesus.
Her reparatory suffering, or suffering for others, was part of her
living her charism for the poorest of the poor.
So for her, the suffering was not only to identify with the physical and
material poverty, but even on the interior level, she identified with
the unloved, the lonely, the rejected.
She gave up her own interior light for those living in darkness, saying,
"I know this is only feelings."
In one letter to Jesus, she wrote: "Jesus hear My prayer
if this pleases You
If my pain and suffering
my darkness and separation gives You a drop of Consolation
My own Jesus do with me as You wish
as long as You wish without a single glance at my feelings and Pain.
"I am your own. Imprint on my soul and life the sufferings of Your
heart. Don't mind my feelings
Don't mind even, my pain.
"If my separation from You, brings others to You and in their love and
company
you find joy and pleasure
why Jesus, I am willing with all my heart to suffer all that I suffer
not only now, but for all eternity, if this was possible."
In a letter to her sisters, she makes the charism of the order more
explicit, saying: "My dear children, without suffering, our work would
just be social work, very good and helpful, but it would not be the work
of Jesus Christ, not part of the redemption
Jesus wanted to help us by sharing our life, our loneliness, our agony
and death.
"All that He has taken upon Himself, and has carried it in the darkest
night. Only by being one with us He has redeemed up.
"We are allowed to do the same: All the desolation of Poor people, not
only their Material poverty, but their spiritual destitution must be
redeemed and we must have our share in it, pray thus when you find it
hard
'I wish to live in this world which is far from God, which has turned so
much from the light of Jesus, to help them
to take upon me something of their suffering.'"
And that captures what I consider her mission statement: "If I ever
become a Saint
I
will surely be one of 'darkness.' I will continually be absent from
Heaven
to [light] the light of those in darkness on earth
"
This is how she understood her darkness. A lot of the things she said
make more sense and have a much deeper meaning now that we know these
things.
Q: So what do you say to those who call her experience a crisis of
faith, that she didn't really believe in God, or somehow imply that her
darkness was a sign of psychological instability?
Father Kolodiejchuk: It wasn't a crisis of faith, or that she lacked
faith, but that she had a trial of faith where she experienced the
feeling that she did not believe in God.
This trial required a lot of human maturity, otherwise she wouldn't have
been able to do it. She would have become unbalanced.
As Father Garrigou-Lagrange said, it is possible to have seemingly
contradictory feelings at the same time.
It is possible to have "objective Christian joy," as Carol Zaleski
called it, while at the same time going through the trial or feeling of
having no faith.
There are not two people here, but one person with feelings on different
levels.
We can really be living the cross in someway
it is painful, and it hurts, and just because we can spiritualize it
does not take way the pain, but one can be joyful because one is living
with Jesus. And that is not false.
This is how and why Mother lived a life so full of joy.
Q: As the postulator of her cause for canonization, when do you think we
might be able to call her St. Teresa of Calcutta?
Father Kolodiejchuk: We need one more miracle
we have looked at a few, but none has been clear enough. There was one
for beatification but we are waiting for the second.
Perhaps God has been waiting for the book to come out first, because
people knew that Mother Teresa was holy but because of her ordinariness
and simplicity of expression, they did not have an understanding of how
holy.
I heard about two priests talking the other day. One said he was never a
big fan of Mother Teresa because he thought she was just pious, devout,
and did nice, admirable works, but then when he heard about her interior
life, it changed everything for him.
Now we have more of an idea how developed she was spiritually, and now
something of her deeper characteristics are being revealed.
Once the miracle comes in, it could take a couple of years, although the
Pope could do it faster if he wanted to.
Q: What has happened to the order since Mother's death?
Father Kolodiejchuk: The order has grown by almost 1,000 sisters, from
around 3,850 at her death to 4,800 today, and we've added over 150
houses in 14 more countries.
God's work goes on.
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